After composing the first draft of this post I accidentally hit the wrong button on my phone which deleted everything I had written.
I now understand how people say that time flies when you have kids. Aves is going to be a year old in just over one month. It seems like just yesterday Michelle and I were walking down to the nursery to check on the little guy under the UV lights and worrying about him eating. We got so excited when he drank half an ounce. Now he drinks that much in just one gulp.
Something he has taken a liking to lately is screaming at the top of his lungs when we put him down to bed at night. When I say screaming, I mean the screaming until he's red in the face with tears streaming. Michelle said that it is emotionally draining listening to him scream but I never felt that drain until last night. Most nights Michelle does the bedtime routine, but last night I did it. I took the little man back to his room and gave him his nuk. I read him a couple books and I felt him slowly reclining in my arms. I forgot what it was like to hold a baby that wasn't always squirming in your arms trying to get down. It is great holding him and knowing that he is content laying on you. He was on the verge of falling asleep so I thought I should get him in his crib. As I was standing up, Avery started screaming at the top of his lungs (still with the nuk in his mouth, he's that talented). He knew where the next stop was. I wish I could continue holding him and comfort him. But I knew I couldn't do that because we would end up doing it every night. So I placed him in his crib, turned on his mobile and covered him in a blanket. I felt like a horrible parent leaving him screaming and crying in his crib.
On the flip side of that, Avery has started being vocal. He watches Michelle or me leave the room. He will then start yelling as if he is saying "Hey, where you going?" Then he'll start crawling in the direction that you left. If you wait in the room you'll hear him army crawling his way towards you. When he finally catches up with you, he'll flash a huge smile and then reach up to you. Once you pick him up he'll jam his head into your shoulder. The best thing is when he does his head jam and then wraps his arms around your neck to give you a hug. You can't help but wrap your arms around him and never want to let go.
